I debated not posting this, posting it and then deleting it.
So I'll make this quick and painless, I'm getting a divorce.
I made the call almost one month ago, my ex hub and I have been through to much in the last five years. All of the details I will hold to myself, those don't matter now. What matters now is finding strength and happiness, to push forward and find "myself" again. Feels like I kinda lost touch in that area, time to gain it back. My walls have been up and down for the last few years and trust is something that was lost a long time ago. I will not and can not stay in a marriage where there is no trust, respect and love for one another. I did my part and held in through the years, hope was my strength and now trust is my leader in the new path ahead. I feel its right and I know its right, strange how all these years I never felt so sure as I do now. Papers are being signed, Caleb knows and is handling it better that I would have thought. I found a new place and will be moving here in the next few months, it took weeks of searching to find a place that had a good school district and was affordable for me. So here comes change and I'm ready for it.
So there it is, now just to hit the publish button.